Since before Thanksgiving I have been in the hospital(s) resulting from a serious ATV accident while trail building up a steep mountain ridge near home. It was there that I totaled out my machine and my entire right hip ...
It is a very interesting story in it's own right what with all that was involved in how I was able to be found and rescued by local volunteers, being carried out in the dark on a board stretcher, finally transferred between various vehicles to wards the bottom from 4x4 to ambulance(s) that had me in the hospital about 7 hours after the incident.
The first hospital in Montana questioned their ability to "fix" me, normally sending such injuries on to a larger facility near Seattle, but they decided to try ... it failed and required my airlift to Spokane two states away to repair via two more surgeries involving many metal plates and associated screws and threaded rods for adjustment.
There arose many complications and setbacks requiring 16 days in the CCU (Critical Care Unit) where I was at my lowest possible point often desiring to just be dead and over with it all.
But alas, I am still here pondering the reason and/or meaning of it all from the spiritual point of view. As many who know me are aware, I have claimed a spirituality that I swear by ... that seemed to just drop out of sight during that entire hospital ordeal like I had dropped down into lower level where there was no compassionate GOD to be had ...
I now wonder if it were not related to the experience of Jesus walking the wilderness dealing with Satan etc ... maybe a testing "right of passage" ... ???
(reprint from: http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977610042 )
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